i cried myself to sleep again last night. this will be the 3rd time this week that i have done that...well about that last entry...people say that i should write about what happened.but i cant. maybe in time, but not now. even though what happened gives me nightmares...uhh i dont wanna think about it right now. maybe later i will have the courage to write it down.i dont know. anyways on another subject...cus i dont wanna think about it anymore... ummm today i got all emotional at school. i finally got all my senior things from Jostens that i ordered.im going to miss everyone. i guess it just hit me today that im not going to see a lot of my friends after i graduate. i started crying(well i had tears in my eye) when i went to the table where i used to hang out with my friends and started talking to them about what it will be like after this year...especially Stella was all sad.Josh was sad but hes not emotional like me and stella. Daniel just sat there, hes been acting strange lately. ummm Chris was just bringing up all the stuff that we did through high school...haha fun times fun times.Salina was talking with chris about old times.and stef and Nicos and all the others werent eating today so i havent talked to them yet...jees im going to miss it all. see i always have college class durring lunch so i never see them except when we have class together. and i havent spent lunch with my friends forever. im so sad thinking bout graduation