ok right after the last entry that i wrote....guess who sent me a message????yepp u guessed it....Ferry....heres what he said... Hi there, How are you doing over there? I just got home and I wanted to write you so....here it is! I'm sorry if I'm being a "little" grumpy to you on msn, but you know how things over here are so I hope that you can imagine a little how I feel right now. I'm sleeping down stairs now cause I can't walk the stairs, normaly my parents sleep down stairs but they moved up so I can sleep here and use the down stairs bathroom so I don't have to go up cause I can't. It's really frustrating sitting in this dum chair, I feel like a disabled person, and you know me....I always want to do things, like sports or something and I can't right now, and I DON"T LIKE THAT!! Some friends of mine are going to make they're first para jump tomorrow and the planning was that I went up there with them and film the jump for them with a camera on my helmet but now I have to sit on the ground seeing them "falling" down! but maybe next time when I'm fit again. If everything goes well I still be able to be in the USA in july so, if you still want it we can still see eachother. Well enough complaining from my side, how are you, still very tired or did you get some sleep? Well I hope to hear from you soon. I go to sleep, it's 01.45 am right now and I hope I can sleep a little cause the last few days were terrible, oh sorry, no more complains.... All I have say left is I love you very much and I miss you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so yeah i dunno what all this means....i guess he really does care after all. im glad he finally wrote me. i talked to him this morning but he totally distanced me from him...but i guess i kinda see how hes going through it. he said that he will be getting his surgery in May sometime and will be able to be up on his feet again like he used to....i cant wait for things to be normal again because i just want him to be happy...:) bye Krystal