gosh i cant stop crying. my grandma called me just now.she wants me there..she said she wished i was there. i told her id give anything to be there right now...which i would...i mean, i cant because of lack of money and transportation... she was out of it and i just told her i loved her and then i just broke down. she couldnt understand me so i had to talk to the hospice nurse and the nurse told her what i said. i have a feeling im too late to see her. it sucks so bad. i missed my opportunity. this sucks...........