today was going good until just now. i just got some really really bad news. and im doing the best to keep it together. i really dont want to cry right now. you have no idea how bad i feel. my grandma was just diagnosed with 2 days or less to live. her kidneys are completely shut down on her. this is the worst feeling in my life. i just dont know what to do or say. i dont want her to die... oh my gosh.........i haveta go.