yeah well im just bored sitting here so i thought that id update all u out there on my day.... woke up at 6:00.....2nd hour was a blur, i guess too many thoughts on my mind makes me block out other things.and then after second hour, not much happened important in my life...... i dunno, i have been thinking a lot lately about things in my life and i realized that im not too happy with some of the stuff in my life. its not that bad but it just pushes away the things that should be inportant to me in my life and stuff...jees its like i cant even tell my best friend things anymore...i dont know why but i cant open myself up about things to anybody because i dont feel comfortable telling them, but then again keeping it all inside just isnt working for me... and i cant even write in here about some of the things because.....why....i have no idea...jees and then what happened this morning....wow that was the most scary thing that has ever happened to me. i mean i shouldnt be afraid of hanging out with my friends should i? just because of what one guy that they hang out with had said about me, i cant even hang out with them without worrying about what had happened and what might happen.....jees u guys im lost here and it feels like there is nothing to pull me out and save me.... i hate this...... well im going to my room so i dont have to put up with questions about the way i have been acting lately....i hate questions laters