change...whata big word. that is one thing that i have been trying to fit into my life. its gonna be a long hard path for me to become what i want and need my life to become...i have realized that i am not a person that i want to be. i hate who i am and i am in the process of change. i want to become a better person and im not too sure how im supposed to do that... ahh i just want to step back and scream sometimes...my life just cant get better can it? i dunno i just get frustrated sometimes because no matter how hard i try to make my life better it gets nothin but harder. i dunno what to do anymore.......