i thought i was going to die last night. it was the longest night of my life. and i know that i promised him i would never do that again. i swore to him i wouldnt. he said if i did it again that he would never talk to me again.and i blew another promise to him. i think i came close to an overdose on yellowswarms last night. it all started when we went out. and i downed em all. the rest of the evening was kinda a blur.....the only thing i remember from town was when we were broke down at minit market and some cowboys were hitting on us. and then Maylene called my dad and he came down and tried to fix stefs car. we were on the curb for like 4 hours.....and then i remember coming home and i all of a sudden got dizzy and then i started throwing up and i couldnt stop...and i couldnt hardly breathe and my heart was pounding. my mom wanted to take me to the ER but i refused.gawd.that definately was the longest night of my life. and this morning when i woke up, i honestly can say i was surprised to be alive. i dont know what to tell him. im afraid. i dont wanna lose an awesome friend like that.he was supposed to call this afternoon. he promised.**sighs** oh well i guess. hopefully we can talk soon. well im out Krystal