can i just crawl under my bed and just never come out again? crap crap crap crap i am so going to do something...ahh u do not even know!!!!! ....jees...ahh life sux...no matter how good it can get one minute, the next, something has to ruin the rest of the happyness that i have.....grrr i hate it when my friends at school tells me that they understand because in reality, they dont. they never will because they are not me. and it sucks because its so bad, i cant tell them. i cant tell anyone. so its bottled up and that just makes it worse. but i cant tell anyone. not yet. i cant even think about it, because when i do, i cant stop crying.its so not good.its bad. and i wish that i was brave enough to write it in here, but im not. it must have been my fault.was it me? i dont understand...it had to of been my fault.i cant believe he did it to me.im so scared. why? why? why freakin me?