AHHHHHHHHH i just wanna scream because i was trying to talk to Rocky again and he was totally ignoring me.and i was trying to explain to him what had happened and he wouldnt even talk to me....i mean it hurts a lot that he is acting like that towards me.i mean comeon i was appologising and he wouldnt even talk to me....i mean i dont even know what i was appologising for.....it seems like he just got mad outa nothing....and it has already been 10 months and he acts like he doesnt even care about us anymore...it hurts bad to be treated like that...it hurts more than anything else that i have felt before.i hate this feeling. i know im not going to sleep all night long wondering what went wrong.and i know he doesnt even care if i hurt like that.i mean i was totally putting all my emotions on the line today and he just smashed them...or at least thats what it felt like to me...i dont need to take that from him.i know there is better guys out there for me but why dont i ever find them...and then there is Ferry...he is totally in love with me but he is at basic training over in Holland and i dont feel like what we have will ever turn into something more...and when im in total love with Rocky,i cant just get over him like that and move on like i need to. i wish that i could but i cant.im getting over him more now though because of the way he has been treating me, so it is not something that attracts me when he acts like that....i am so confused people.........