my day yesturday was pretty shitty. and my night was worse. my dad told me that he thinks that im bipolar :/ i hope not. but yeah..i basically just cried myself to sleep last night. since ive been back, i havent been the same..me and my parents are butting heads a lot lately. ugh. i dunno..things just arent very good right now. oh and get this. since ive been really shitty lately, i was going to call my boyfriend last night..and my mom had the phone disconnected. she wouldnt even let me talk to him. i was pissed. well i was going to call him to tell him that i need to break up with him. i cant give him what he wants out of the relationship..i cant offer it to him. i need to separate from him for a while to see if i can get up on my feet and make my life better. he deserves someone who can give him what i cant. i dont deserve him anyways. and i dont know how to tell him this. i go to tell him, and i chicken out and dont say anything at all. i dunno..i guess i feel that he can do so much better than me. im at a point in my life where i dont know what to do..im so confused right now. ugh. well i need to think before i do something i might regret... Krystal