i must be freakin stupid or something. ugh. i cant believe that i did what i did. oh and for all of you that might wanna know what jose did to me....well........part of it is a little too uncool, and i dont feel like i should be writing it on this thing because some people (my sister) might be reading this...so ill just put part of it..it all started with a phone call...we were supposed to be hanging out, and he calls and decides to blow me off for the 3rd time in a row, so yeah im a little upset..so i kinda get attitude with him, and one thing led to another, and i heard becca *his hoe* walk in to his house and say something. so he goes and tells me he has to do something real quick, and i go ok..and i hear him whispering to her asking her what he should tell me as an excuse as to why he cant hang out with me..so he gets back on the phone saying hes still up in morenci..and i tell him i dont believe him, and he gets really pissed off by this time, and i go fine, its not like we are really going out anyways, so i dont know why im worried about it, and he says ok then why are you still calling me if we arent going out. ohhhh no.........that set it off right then and there because hes the one that has been calling me, not the other way around. so i hang up the phone on him, and i go home upset. well he calls me later that night, and tells me he wants to talk to me, so i go over to his brothers house where hes at, and i find out hes drunk off his ass. so im about to leave...and yeah...this is the part where i cant write what happened..it makes me sick thinking about it....so on to the next day..........well im at walmart, and this is after ive kinda forgiven him, and i see his stupid ass all over her in walmart...ugh. so i go confront him, and she just stands there like a retard..and i ask him if they are going out again..and he tells me no, but obviously somethings going on or else i wouldnt have seen him in there with her..duh...so of course i dont believe him, and i leave with aaron. then i happen to drive by his house to give him all his shit that he left in my car from a couple days ago, and i see them together again. and thats really all that has happened. he fed me a bunch of lies, i believed him, and i ended up getting hurt in the long run again. i was finally over him, and he has to come back and ruin things for me. ugh. whatever. im done with his games...