tonight we all went out to help me get my mind off of things, and it just made things worse. i dunno,everythings just different now. its weird. ha. anyways i left with Stef and first we went to her house, and then went to EAC to see if we could find CJ, but of course he wasnt there, so then we went to Walmart to look around, and then we all went to Nicks house. and everyone and their brother was there. and i got dared to jump in the pool and i did. and me, brandon, paige, and jolene swam for a while, and then me and Stef got into a lil fight and we left and i came home and now im here. bored. and tired but cant sleep cus im too afraid to sleep. whata night hu? i dont think im going to go out again tomarrow night. i got invited back to Nicks house, but i dont think im going to go.i guess his parents are gone for the weekend. i told him id think about it, but i dont think im gonna go. i need a break from everyone for a little bit. im sick of having to act perfect around everyone just because they expect it out of me. i dont need this. i just need a break for a while. its weird. but i do. im out Krystal