gosh...this weekend was the longest weekend of my life. and i am so sad too. saturday night i decided to go by Joses house because he wasnt answering the phone...and i got to see first hand that he has been cheating on me the whole time. i walked in on him and Becca in the shower together. and i broke down right there and went crazy on his ass...and the whole time, all he could say was shut up shut up....and i told him all kinda stuff about how we were over for good and everything. then me and Stef left. and i couldnt stop crying....i gave up everything for him.i cant see how he could do that to me...how could a guy that told me i was his world, and his everything, and that he loved me and couldnt live without me do something like that to me...he made me feel like garbage that night. he didnt even come after me when i left. that is the worst feeling that i have ever had. i dont think i could trust another guy like i did. i really dont think i could. i cant stop crying...ya know what i feel like? like im not good enough for a guy, that im not good enough for them to choose me and only me, that he had to have another girl on the side. i feel not good enough for any guy. and gosh 9 months of my life, down the drain...i cant even sleep without dreaming about what we have done in the past nine months...i cant even be awake without him running through my mind. he haunts my dreams and my reality. the worst feeling of all though is the fact that i chose him over everyone else: my family, and my friends...and they tried to tell me he was trouble, but did i believe them? no........and now i had to learn the hard way.