ive cleaned and cleaned and cleaned and what do i get out of this it seems that erica is the only one whos goin to be impressing anybody no one seems to like me do i smell am i ugly do i have something wrong with me or do people just hate me or do they just not to be friends or do they already have things to do everyone seems to not be able to come to jessica's house for new years its gonna end up just bein me and sarah because i cant use the phone because i dont like phones only if others call me im like handicaped i dont call others the party is goin to be deserted its gonna so far be me and hmm sarah luckily i have at least one descent friend if i had the guts id invite all the new london guys but no im not that desperate plus id rather not embarass myself anymore then whats already come of this i hate this and i hate myself right now i wish id just pass out and have everything gone from memory maybe if somehow i were in the hospitol because i was desperatly sick well even then no one would come visit me no one why of course cuz no one seems to care my feelings are dead painless peices of shame and ash tray that everyone seems to crumble there flames on no one cares gosh i hate this i hate me and nothing else i hate the fact that it seems that no one seems to want to come how mortifying i was gonna make confetti but now i dont feel like it any confetti i would make would burn into ashes