so i typed a shit load and tried saving and it didnt work damnit but ya goin to golf meet tomorrow and today was good did a good job at golf i played very nicely lol but ya theres only 3 girls goin and out of the 10 girls on the jv team 3 are goin and im one of them which doesnt make sence cuz i rank like 5 or 6 so im kind of confused.. happy but confused.. but ya and hmm today i tried out for solo and it was awesome cuz i know everyone was watching me and especially that one guy that i kind of like well i guess i know for those very few moments i know that he had to be watching me and ya it was perfect and i was shaking really really badly lol but before i was even done they started clapping it feels so good to actually have ppl care about what you do and it was pretty special but ya and then the kid that always says something to me thats never a hello but asks me either if i have a dollar or he actually talks to me and trips me lol and ya he asked me for money today lol gosh im so stupid but ya every guy that i like has a girlfriend so its not even worth trying and even if they didnt have a girlfriend it still wouldnt be worth it because theres always someone better then me to go for so ya but i think this is the end of this entry.. it was longer before ill keep you updated on the solo oh ya other good thing today whats his name came on and that made my day cuz i kind of like him and i never ever ever get to see him and the only time i get to see him is this summer if im lucky but ya ill have to contact him on that when he comes here lol but ya i hope to see him when he comes but ya thats all for today