if only you all new the truth about me and sd.. yesterday was the 8th again. not sure what to think of the day.. dont know what i would do without sd.. might i say.. pretty sure school sucks.. pretty sure im a super duper loser and have like barely any friends.. for sure i dont have any at school seeing as they really dont care... basically i could sit in a corner and be learning the same exact amount of stuff.. maybe if i grew up that way.. i'd be happy.. not saying i am not happy or am happy.. lets just say i try and hide my feelings from the rest of the world.. maybe that could be it.. as of like this week i've basically just wanted to be a graduate and first year in college.. i hate highschool.. dont get me wrong it does have its good points but now i just kind of want to leave willmar.. top of my list i think is scsu just cuz i dont want to be far.. for my own reasons.. but then again those reasons are changing.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. maybe i have cooties.? im ugly? eh.. maybe.. i smell? for a fact, not a question, i know that im really stupid.. no person has to tell me that answer.. i just wish i were smart at some things.. uh blah. whatever i dont know why i am even writing in here.. stupid jorge. i've had you for so long.. it will be weird to look back at all of my entries on sd.. its so weird.. goodness.. i wonder if sd will be around still by the time im thirty or forty.. i dont want to wake up one day and find that its no longer here.. i think i would probbaly cry.. it would definatly be one sad day.. just like how everything is disapearing now.. i dont even know who i am anymore or what im feeling.. not sure i really want to.