ok right now im not to bad im really flustered like friday is heck like this weekend is sooo busy i wish i could drive cuz id be at sarahs right now if i could talkin to sarah and that person who names nameless lol right sarah lol like i feel wierd like in the morning im like sad or whatever but then the day goes on and i get happier and its aqcuired i guess it depends on the day and what im talkin about most of the time but ya im pretty satisfied right now i dont feel bad i feel pretty happy im excited but it seems when i get excited things dont happen so high hopes are bad for me but i guess im ok im so stressed for friday what im doin like prom or whatever if im goin to nls or not and i got lots on my plate and i dont know where to start but yes i will get to it i just get sooooo confuzzled and im frustrated at the same time cuz i want something but i cant get it but like its hard and i have to get rid of the feeling that i want this thing i have to get rid of what i want but ya its a big bubble of mystery i love sarah thats what this entry was goin to be about sarah ya know what right now yet once again i feel so like close like were right in each others buisness lol jk but like i dont know i just hope we get to go and like if not we have to go over to your house or over to mine but i dont know we'll see yeah see this is one thing im excited for and it makes my friday like all better like its wierd but ya like during the day i think about it and i get this rush and all i want to do is go to the commons and tell you what im imagining and stuff cuz like one of my biggest things in life is like that i dream or like i imagine things which is kind of bad cuz whatever it is it never happens and it always goes wrong and it makes me sad and want to hide away but ya so we have to do somethin with that whatever person and stuff i love new london but i dont want you to take my school away cuz thats my place to turn to cuz i love it there lol but ya this is the end of this entry