so who knows now if im going to the fair or not now.. i dont know.. i finally called everyone and emailed randy who knows what he is gonna say.. ahh what happens if i get fired.. then i guess i wont lifeguard next year.. i will find a real job and work there.. still probably not nearly as much money as i made at the lakes.. but i guess then ill just have to work more then what i would at the lakes and it will hopefully pay off for it.. uh this is so dumb though.. i want to go to the fair.. like part of me is like eh i dont care but the rest of me is like i want to go.. uh and i just relized just now i have to work friday but i have soccer.. shit i will be missing soccer i guess.. damn and we were gonna be running a lot and i need that run and if im gone for the fair i will be missing 4 days of practice... im gonna have to have to have to go running at the fair in the mornings.. uh i want to go to the fair just cuz i love staying up at night and sleeping a bunk over from sarah and talking the whole night and jess will be there this year too.. and i love setting up my bunk and being all gross feeling from being there so long and the nights are so hot.. and uh i love that part and i love going to the 3m building 1,000 times a day to get free stuff and walking around a lot and hanging out and sneaking food into the dorms and eating deep fried candy bars.. and talking to connor and watching him in arts in which i wish i could do as it is amazing and we watch it about 1 billion times and then after we remember all of the songs and could perform with them and sabrina will probably be in it again.. and maybe leah will be a state ambassador and maybe we'll run into the evil jade and maybe tyler will be there and maybe other cool ppl that we know oh and connors cool arts in friends and the one last year was like some big political guys son and he was cool and maybe connor can reteach that song to me and uh and eric will maybe come and jess and grant and sarah will be there to hang with and uh i want to go to the fair as i love it there.. i have gone and stayed there for like the past 5 years and one year i went with both livestock and general encampment and uh its just way to much funand i dont want to miss out at all on any of it.. ugh.. i want to go to the fair. ____________________________________________ i am going to the fair randy says i can have it off.. yea.. i have to go running in the morning though.. ugh im gonna be tired..