i keep telling myself no to this kind of shit.. but of course i let go.. ugh gross.. eventually tonight me and sarah are gonna lock ourselves in the other room and talk about everything.. i have not talked to anyone about anything.. it will be odd.. i never let people in to hear what i have to say i never ever let people hear what i have to say.. i bottle myself up.. we'll see what i tell her.. i guess.. im pretty much just blah.. britty had troubles with the broken machine thingy lol i had to help her.. i forgot my glasses im mad cuz i would love to take my contacts out but cant cuz i dont have glasses. oh my gosh im also pissed about how i can be so dumb.. fucking idiot.. and im also pissed how no one came over tonight.. me and sarah wanted to have more people to run from but no.. no one came.. poopy people.. it makes me sad.. eric would have but he is sick. poor eric.. im sorry that really sucks.. im pretty sure i wish i could vomit cuz i ate too much.. we had fettuchini alfredo.. it was.. REALLY GOOD.! they were making fun of me and sarah when we were laying on the couch together and we were like holding hands haha it was funny though.. and she had cold hands and they made me happy.. they were cold and sweet.. i looked like shit today.. and fucking josh was gone so for lunch i went into the library and did homework cuz sd was not working at that time and it made me fucking mad.. green glasses make me dizzy