ugh im so sick this im sick of me and im sick of the way i am.. i dislike myself and again the person ive created why did i dig these damn wholes and why the fuck do i keep having to talk of how much i hate myself.. like i dont know like i dont hate me i just hate the person i am.. like in public and with friends im happy and giggly but when im not with them.. no one really knows what im like.. i cant get rid of this.. maybe in like years.. or sometime.. i hate highschool i wish i could stay up here with erica i wish i was smart enough for postsecondary id go up here and ugh that would be sooo cool.. and it would be fun.. we could have gone to a party tonight but were too cool for that so we stayed and drank a smoothie and some energy drinks ugh ugh were watching family guy and peters son is playing soccer and his number is mine.. haha that makes me feel like a fatty just like his son lol.. we probably look about the same when wearing our jerseys thats grotesck or however you say that.. it is ericas pretty birthday i love my seestar it has been really fun hanging out with her i love her.. ugh being away from willmar and all i can think about is how i think i lost my class ring and whether or not justin is working for me on tomorrow blah i love erica and she makes me happy and that makes me feel good.. ugh i dont want to leave.. it makes me want to cry when i think about leaving tomorrow.. i want to live with her up here even though it is kind of a dead town.. ugh i dont want to leave this place.. that is not willmar.. where it seems that i find problems.. plus the best bonus is erica is up here.. glorious.. i slept in the car for an hour while my parents went to the damn casino.. ugh sleeping i love miss erica t..!