so today like any other day is normal boring and yuck.. although today i think i have pretty much had a headache like all day and just am sick of school.. i hate lunch so much everyone annoys me and like augh and i hate kraemer i sware she hates me i think she is honestly just trying to make me do bad her and her ways of making me sleep and then taking points off of my notebook score that whore i dislike her ugh i wish i didnt have the game tonight cuz now i was invited to go to the movies with ali and i guess christa is goin so no fair but they have no school tomorrow so it makes sence to go i told ali to go tomorrow because we have no school tomorrow.. im sad i really want to go to the movies tomorrow night damnit and stupid eric cant go cuz he works so maybe it will be like just me and sarah cuz everyone else who i have in mind probably wont be able to and sarah probably wont be able to so ill be all by myself and wont be able to go to the gosh damn movies grr tear i really really really want to go.. spicer.. spicer.. spicer.. i want to see harry potter haha i actually read this book too so it would be way cool.. grr i want to go to the movies.. ugh i feel yucky and dont feel like smiling today the muscles in my face are too tired which doesnt make sence cuz i guess it takes more muscles to frown then to smile .. i miss that someone and want to see them again damn thoughts come back ive officially been scarred for life until the life ends again and i get to start a new beginning with a new life a new person.. sigh.. i hate feelings i hate.. having to go to school and live through another day with kraemer .. now im getting even more aggrivated by going over all these things yet once again i hate thougts and i hate feelings augh i want to see you again.. but will hate myself if i were too..! i hate you! (not eric)