well so its been a while, today was my birthday but it wasnt exciting at all whats so ever it doesnt even feel like its my birthday i hate it and hmm well i guess i could talk about the semi-formal well lets see it was fun for the most part except the whole falling down two times, breaking my toenail, watching britty and andrew, and frolecking around during slow songs it was pretty good jessica and i were disipointed beings the guys that we like who are like best friends seem to like have dates sort of well jessicas crush not mine he just has his girl that he'd dance every slow song with except like the first one hehe he couldnt find her but jessicas like jessica just go ask him im like no jessica its not like that see im like afriad im afraid of rejection im afraid of guys like i cant wait for the future having lots of boyfriends dating getting married having a good job having kids but when i look at going after a guy and asking him something as simple as to dance its just not an obtion i just dont do it i think that letting the guy know that you like him is icky cuz then they try to ignore you or ill start not liking him because i know he knows and he might like me if they like you they'll ask you out but obviously my situation is that he ignores me cuz i think he knows im just to ugly for his dream girl or whatever you want to say it is i just wish that like he would like me that he'd be willing to give up some time to come watch one of my games because ive gone to his sport activities but he never comes to mine what the hell is wrong with him or is it me theres no one thats talkin me out of this one lol well i sick of talking about that but eeeewwww...at the dance britty and andrew were making out during like slow dances and anything worse then that well no it cant get any worse like seriously sorry britty but nast lests just say nasty YUCK.!. ugh i was talkin to whats his name and he makes up these like almost excuses not to talk to me cuz he always has to be goin i think i should do it to him ya know that, personally i think he had a crush on me like last year or the year before the year before i knew i didnt like him i thought he was wierd well plus i was just getting to meet him but then last year i started liking him and now i really really like him but now im rethinking my liking feelings i wish i didnt have feelings no pain in it then everytime i write in this thing i think beyond what im actually thinking its just beyond everything in my mind on thursday i scored my first hockey goal it was awesome like ashley was goin around the net and im waiting for the pass and she passes it and bam it goes in it was soo perfect then like all the girls that were on the ice at the moment kept crowding me and then the ones comin off the ice to start the face off all got out there and started to attack me it was sooo awesome i wish i could just have recordings of every moment so i could replay the good moments in life you want to share with your kids when your older and are tellin your storys or when your an old person telling ppl who might just sit next to you when your eating at like a potluck diner or omelet breakfast like this mornin when this guy was tellin us his storys yet then again he'd tell us about how he wanted to jump off a 7 story high building but jesus spoke to him and told him to live for his kids sake and now there big ppl like a cop in the cities and one works in the white house and he told us jesus has spoke to him twice throughout his whole life there was that time and another time i think the guy was a little wierd yet interesting but my cousin seemed to like his storys but ya know well its late im tired i havent had a shower since thursday night but like i rinsed just my hair out this mornin and shampood it so itd look half decent well i guess this should be it i have not to much more to type about life is short happy birthday to me mom says i get a party but more then likely when im not as busy yeah... like i have friends that would be able to come...