today during lunch i decided that im gonna cut down on my language.. as in my bad language as in i swear to much i have a "potty mouth" as my father would say.. he told me like two days ago that he doesnt like the language that i speak and that he was like i dont know ashamed of me but not necassarily those words.. i dont know.. less harsh then that sounds i guess.. lol.. and then on the bus ride home me and jessi were talking about it again with chelsey and we were like making up words to use instead.. so like instead of shit.. use the word shyhausen cuz its like way cool.. and some others i cant seem to remember... today we had a hockey game in st. cloud.. its terrible to go to st. cloud and not be able to stop at chipotles.. i even wore my chipotles shirt today as i knew i was going to st. cloud.. sad.. we lost our game like nine to zero yes we suck.. dont worry i think we know it.. but like ya.. on the bus amanda was on the phone and was talking to her mom and told her mom that she hates her and she was like yelling at her mom and like cussing and it was kind of sad i was like wow.. i really do love my parents.. lol but ya she was being a dingdong like normal.. she really annoyed me today.. ugh before we left for the game.. the boys apollo team was already at the arena because they have jv teams and so the game is at 5 so ya and like of course amandas friend eric was there but haha she went up to him i guess and said hi and then he said hi and like walked away or something.. gosh shes gay.. ya lol retard.. today was better then yesterday although this morning sucked.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. im sure that i probably havent acted like the normal jessica for the past few days.. sometimes i just relize that im an ass.. oh and i forgot to apologize to jess for being one to her.. i will do that tomorrow hopefully.. blah but i just dont understand any of it.. i need to the opposite of what i hate.. like especially what i see in other people.. like im sure the things that i think of others... i bet im the exact same way.. i can think of some that i bet i am too.. but i try to include others i normally ask people to go places.. i try to get other people involved.. and not like only think of myself.. i think of others plans before my own... especially when it comes to christa and sarah.. i always include those two.. i dont know why.. maybe because there two that i know i will forever trust and im pretty sure they will stick with me until i literally die seeing as how they are my cousins and plan on having them in a hell of a lot of the moments in my future.. whoa i totally just found a scissor on this desk and it has jt on it therefor its mine and im in ericas room and im gonna guess she brought this back from college.. of course using my shit like normal.. oh well a scissor is a scissor.. im sure ive written quite a lot.. and i can now officially write that word.. oh today i can officially say.. i did not even come close to falling asleep in kraemers class.. but im pretty positive that i took my contacts out about an hour ago but my eyes are literally burning.. maybe its because they are tired.. im so stoked for tomorrow as im goin snowboarding with christa at powderridge i hope she doesnt ditch me cuz then i will feel like a total reject.. but erica is letting me use her board and i hope its not to big.. i feel special bringing my own board.. pretending that it belongs to me.. thats way cool.. and its a pretty cool board seeing as how ericas friend decorated it for erica.. she gave it a whole new paint job so its pretty killer lol.. what a cool word.. ya but this weekend will blow after friday cuz i have nothing to do but work on sunday.. which royally sucks.. blah im tired and i promised myself id get off of the computer by one so i have officially six minutes as it is twelve fifty four i would just type the numbers but am too lazy to reach up and find the numbers as m my fingers dont really know where the numbers are i can pretty much type without looking at my fingers .. i dont really need a keyboard either lol.. *coughfreakcough* yes yes i know.. you dont need to tell me.. blah blah blah blah blah.. thank you for those who have sadly read this.. i admire you cuz this like normal was quite a bit to read.. thank you for wasting your time on a very boring entry.. tired of thinking.. much less doing anything in general twelve fifty nine and getting off