im pretty sure that today also sucked.. i dont know exactly why.. theres things that run threw my head and eventually get to me.. there are things that i know for a fact that they are things that ruined my day.. one of the most major one that i came to a conclusion of is that i miss my sister.. she is suppose to come home tomorrow.. but she isnt.. i want to cry.. she called home cuz she is sick and i picked up before giving it to mommy and i said hi and how are you and whats wrong as she sounded sad.. but its cuz she is sick.. but i gave the phone to mom and i wanted to cry because i miss her sooo much.. and i just want a hug from her and just hang out and have our one night shopping fun where we gather what money we have and spend it on cool stuff like food or purses.. i want to give her a hug but sometimes her hugs are not full of love and care there just eh.. except when she leaves then they are.. i love hugging her cuz she is warm and she fits into my arms perfectly.. ugh i just want to see my sister.. there are a few other things bugging me.. i dont want to be mean.. but the stupid comments in the commons have been pissing me off.. i dont do gross things.. and wont so just dont kid about that kind of shit.. as its disgusting. another thing getting to bug me is that sarah and alana and i have not had a fun time for a long time and it makes me really sad.. i havent laughed with them since like february which is also pathetic for reasons.. like no the last time that i remember was when britty was home.. which makes me sad. i want that back.. like today i went there after golf and it was like we werent talking much and me and alana were just drags and sarah was happy but we were like eh.. and i kind of felt bad cuz the atmosphere between us was acquired.. the last part of what i will mention is that i have not gotten enough sleep.. i should probably go to bed earlier but i refuse to cuz its the only time we get to talk.. and i love talking.. today i fell asleep in my last three classes.. out of the four classes. woohoo.. dumb ass. i could not help it.. i could not keep my eyes open.. i felt like i was high all day.. i was wobbly feeling and could not stand straight.. today after golf i could not breath again.. i dont know what is wrong with me.. i could breath yesterday but not today.. i want everything to be fixed i want my sister to come home and i want sarah and alana and i to have a good time.. i want the fun times.. i want to make these smoothie things.. eric you have to have one too.. cuz i say so even though ive never ever ever made them before.. that way i can poisen you.. just kidding just kidding.. but i want to make them urgh.. and they wont be sour this time.. golf better be done by thursday.. i need to find and excuse to get out of the meet on thursday.. as i really dont want to go.. ugh i just want to be done with it.. but then i dont know what i would do after school.. watch tv? haha the food channel as i got made fun of for watching disney channel so i watch the food channel now.. in which sarah my dad says that disney is not a kids channel its a family channel and that he likes it.. lol honestly said that.. lol i love him. i feel like a burden to everyone.