ya so i guess thats what im feeling today sucked mainly cuz everythign sucks like seriously but i have to go to bed soon cuz im sick of staying up so frigen late i felt out today like one of those days where i put no effort into talkin to anyone in general i mean im so sick of trying to push everyone else away so you can just stand there and talk or just listen to all the convos and so i just kind of stand out and away thats why i cant wait till next year with bailie and i can stand with her and we can just stand there cuz im just sick of trying im sick of trying to get whats his names attention im sick of trying to make myself look "good" for everyone else im sick of the pathetic retards just want spring break to come maybe it will cool things down a bit but it pisses me off cuz ive been lookin forward to the whole shopping for stuff and my moms like what do you neeed and shes just in " to much pain" to do anything and i mean anything like to even run to the store and i want to go with her cuz dad gets to be a pain in the ass and i always feel bad to spend his money cuz he pays for everything and he needs to rest he has to work so much and mom complains about work yet she does nothing at all thats all im done i made another movie except only i can see it its about the fag whom i go to school to see everyday yet he doesnt even notice me... obviously