so today i think i pretty much talked to no one.. i like would kind of stand there and people would just push me out so i guess id just leave most of the time.. but at least im making an appearence.. eric and jess came and talked to me a bit that was cool i guess.. and dearest alana and i were talking of our wonderous day on sat.. which it was pretty fun.. but then again boring but at least there.. i could act whatever cuz they dont know what im like so its like a fresh start.. i was pretty much not very talkative at all today.. and like during lunch i knew that most of my friends werent gonna be in my lunch seeings as everyone now has a lunch and i guess i have b lunch so i instead of going to lunch.. i went with josh p to the music area and i taught him to play a little songy thing on the piano thing it was pretty cool our plan is to bring a movie every day and watch that during lunch then we dont have to do anything and we get to watch a movie so ya that could be cool we just have to figure out how to watch the movie.. it seems everyone is getting along pretty well in life i dont think im hearing to many complaints and thats awesome.. today i would say i felt out of the "loop" but thats fine it dont matter im fine that way i guess.. it just happens to be this time of year and its probably the same feeling as last year except i dont quiet remember it this way last year.. as im sure it was a different case last year except also last year was stupid and so is this year and i really dont know what the deal is this year.. well kind of but not really.. pretty much having no one in my classes doesnt help 1st block theres people but i dont expect them to ever talk to me.. sometimes grant but not often.. 2nd block.. jesse but she might be out of my class now cuz she wasnt there.. 3rd block theres no one worth talking to except josh cuz id rather have him rather then no one and cant really say we even talk cuz we really dont talk except lunch.. which alana i guess might come to my lunch now.. but ive decided to not eat lunch anymore seeing as i found over break that i really dont need to eat that either.. then i have 4th block which alana is in too.. i seem to be finding alana as like a true sista gal at first she me and sarah were like sista gals three but like i loved alana and all but we never really did much or talked or relied on each other... like we did but not as much as me and sarah..but now its like we kind of are.. its cool i guess.. ya i hate school.. i hate everywhere i go.. except goin to new london and chillin with alana.. sarah should have come except no effence sarah but you would have looked odd cuz you dress more "preppy" then them lol.. no effence.. and you know that though.. you would know what they look like.. they seem different but they were pretty cool.. did you know becca was there.. wait you did nm.. sorry im writing like notes even though your not reading this lol.. although you said you do read it.. ahhh stop writing notes in diary.. so ya.. mom and i stopped at whitney music to bring my picolo for a check up seeing as its all disformed and stuff.. ya and i like zoned away from my mom and the lady and started lookin around and i found the green album for weezer i now have a goal to do some songs from it.. its my first guitar book of my own thats not ericas so its cool and its the most steller band there is so it should be like awesome.. so now im sitting here with my guitar in my lap and the book on the desk but its not open since im talking to people and writing in here my fingers seem pretty occupied.. although i got to the tuning part so im ready to go i just need to get my fingers free.. my boring day.. my boring life..