whoa i just quivered .. today fucking sucked im pretty sure my day was ultimatly terrible first off i had some damn troubles getting into the fucking parking lot and i cant drive and it ruined my day.. and i felt like a fucking retard.. ugh god i hate it.. i hate driving and i hate the schools parking lot.. i effing felt like crap all day.. i hate school sooooooo much i think its practically gay.. eventually it finally ended and i went home.. but i was freaking out if i get in an accident because im afraid of driving cuz i pretty much suck at life.. secret: i wanted to cry today.. i just secretly never told anyone.. alana dissed me and turned me down she told me she does not want to make love with me.. were at sarahs.. me and alana ran away and ate chocolates it was gross i shouldnt have eaten them.. blah .. i feel soooo gross.. fatt asses.. lol whatever i should stop typing.. alana totally reminded me of what a depend and deprived life ive had since october.. lol that girl needs a boyfriend.. but she'll get one and then she gets sick of them and then breaks up with themm...