well im now challenged, why, because thats what i decided to put today was ok in gym i got to play that one someone in batmitten or whatever it is called it was pretty special although he seemed to not have any interest in starting conversations to much although i pretty much made him talk i have control over everything whuaahahaha sarah said she'd call me but she never did we were gonna go play hockey but i dont think id have the energy to play hockey im so dead beat tired i wish we could have gone to the swim meet yesterday cuz there so fun, i dont think ryan did very well cuz his name wasnt mentioned very often andrew nicklowski was though and so did this one really hotttttt diver chris hoooooooo hotthothtohtohtohtohot well i cant spell when doing that but i think you know what i mean last time i seen sarahs eyes wondering on chris as he walked by us and her eyes werent to pretty but they were blessed with happiness sadly i guess its definatly not what i wanted to see this week i have been goin up stairs with joanna in the morning and like we've been goin to sit in the pod upstairs and steph and casey and this girl in figure skating and some other kid and ryan and joanna and me and this emma girl are all up there but then joanna didnt take me up there with her today cuz we didnt see each other before she went up there so then i had to hang with the others and i didnt want to i think she went up there without me cuz she didnt want me up there i dont know why maybe she's mad cuz id talk more then her i guess i dont know really but i dont really no effence to sarah cuz she most likely will read this but i dont like hangin in the commons with all of them in the mornin cuz joanna and jessie g arent there so its not really that all great i like goin in the pods and just sitten there and talkin i wish i had the guts to go up there myself and just sit with all of them and just blab about nothin but napoleon dynamite and just sit there and ponder of nothing next year when bailie goes to my school and she gets to hang out with me were gonna start a little thing in the pods were just gonna make our own thing goin on where anyone can come and join us and just talk with us so that we wont have to sit in the commons and be retards where everyone whos in the commons can see you but in the pods where you can do whatever you want and be whoever you want we'll go to a pod where i have no classes so i cant get in trouble with my teachers and instead ill make friends with those teachers well i suppose ive written so much that no one will read it no one ever does anyways cuz no one cares about my life and stuff and so it dont matter what i type cuz no one will notice just how they notice me in school no one no guys in my life my black book is blank i dont even have any guys comin after me i suppose im a little young but im turnin 15 at the end of the month and i cant be like these ryan and liz flann top news of our grade about them two there two total opposites and i guess ryan asked liz out but she cant date till 15 and she has 6 months to go i guess refering to both of there msn messenger names i think that shes just a little more i dont know i dont want to say to much in case anyone reads it but i think there two different ppl im kind of jealous of it though to have a boy wait that long for her and i guess they talk on the phone a lot according to joanna who has to hear about it in first hour but liz has to be one pretty damn lucky girl to be getting that kind of luck to have him wait for her and will probably treat her right unless like my little wish that would be hilarious thats why i wish of it i wish that one day she just wakes up and relizes she hates him and that she doesnt want to go out with him that she thinks he's ugly or somethin or she thinks shes to good for him it'd be funny but i hope it actually doesnt happen cuz then id feel sorry for ryan and that would suck for him and i dont really talk about his problems with him but as a teenager im sure he doesnt need anymore i hope if they do go out he dumps her relizing shes a bimbo or that he wakes up relizing he doesnt like her i guess for now i can just wish for the best and hope everything turns out, ya know i think wrighting all of what ive written today has definatly helped me its taken me to look at how my life is goin right now and the feelings i should be feeling what a bond jk thats sounds so corny but i am kind of relieved i almost hope no one reads this the total bore of reading this has to be excrusiating however you spell that and im sorry youve wasted however long it took you to read it it took me about 5-10 min not to bad i love how fast i type, we have a tournament on saturday morning and we get to go to a hotel and swim and stuff but i almost dont want to swim because all of the hockey girls are skinny and im fat so bad mix i guess although i hope theres hot guys there and one of them talks to me and decides he's "madly in love with me" lol that'd be funny but a girls dream is i guess is that a guy whos hot and you dont know them would come up to them and just talk and ask for like an email adress or somethin really cute but of course hot girls theres no problem for a guy to do that or even like the guy you have a crush on and if he has your email adress maybe ask for your phone number or if some guy came up to you and told you that he likes you a girl isnt gonna be like ewwww unless your like someone extremly ugly then i wouldnt even try or if your like the nerd everyone picks on at school even the girls do if its just the guys pickin on you your fine but the girls well thats pretty harsh id wait till college lol im totally just kidding cuz thats really harsh but itd be cute if a guy would do that a girls feelings toward that are like "o how cute" unless there bitches and are like ya get away i think it be the sweetest thing but that doesnt happen to me but the average joe kind of girl doesnt get that and i guess im an average joe or i guess an average jorge maybe its beyonde joe it does have more letters and alphabetically its toward the end of the line, i guess all im waiting for is this summer when i see skyler i havent seen him since the last time i went to camp like 3 years ago he'll be goin to sonshine maybe even playing on one of the smaller stages and what pisses me off is my friend britty seems to try and take him away from me and if that doesnt piss me off i dont know what will i just cant wait to see him though if i could drive id bring him to my house and him and his friends could stay at my house instead of having to sleep on the cold ground in a tent that'd be sweet we could party till the end of like never ahh thatd rock, i cant also wait for next week in gym we get to go skating in the civic center im not sure if ill take my hockey skates and show speed and be a tom boy or take my figure skates and be graceful and show off my jumps and stuff im not sure i guess im still deciden, well i guess if you read all of this you should leave me some just so i can read one of your diaries make it long and grousom for me to read beings this is pretty long and im very sorry you read this its pretty blan just like my life so ya i still have homework and its 9:36 so i should go do it so bye im just an average jorge nothing more not even an average joe