i dont know why but i feel empty and wierd at the moment and its very confusing and frustrating.. maybe its because of the fact that i have to go on a dead end trip tomorrow and will have nothing to do.. im gonna bring like every dvd that i have.. i plan on dressing for 3 stupid games and sitting there on the bench and sometimes going out.. which yes it is fun.. but then afterwards what are we suppose to do... wander around the hotels halls.. hmm actually that sounds good.. were gonna race and frolick down the halls like merry jolly o'people and then we shall go watch movies. and not let anyone else in the room as i pretty much want to disclude the rest of the team from my vacation as im suppose to be at home by my lonesome doing much more productive things like being on the computer all day.. hockey equals school related which equals me being lazy and not wanting to do anything with school as im suppose to be away from school and not thinking any of it..which is the way it should be but no damn hockey messes it up and i hate it.. its poopy.. erica and ian left to go to ians house and visit his family and erica was going to leave me her computer to play on or use as she was gone but no she took it with her.. i was very disapointed as i looked forward to going on it..but now theres nothing to look forward to but a dead end vacation that will give or prove any fun to me except maybe running down the halls.. as for christmas it went well i got an electric guitar and a tracfone of which i didnt even relized i asked for oh and i got a pretty necklace from grandpa.. and ian got me a battery charger.. smart man i tell you as i seem to always need them for my camera.. i got some cds as well i guess.. oh and i figured out how to turn my pictures into like black and white.. and sepia and then some other coolio tricks i was very pleased then i have some like things on the computer that i found out how to do .. ahh cameras i love them so too much.. yes yes so too much i did just use terrible grammer.. just to show how much i love them.. i feel really really empty like really really .. and i dont know what it is.. and it could be because erica and ian are gone but i doubt that as when she's normally gone i dont feel this way.. but maybe its cuz i dont want to go tomorrow.. or maybe its something else.. i dont know.. im getting a headace and im empty