so i never did finish the waiting for your call entry but ya i was goin to but i just dont feel like it anymore haha but ya so ya but i feel alone jess is gone to the state fair i went there thursday and ya me and chris hung out like the whole day and jess was with us for a while but she wanted to sit so then we hung out and then she came back and hung out with us some more hahahaha that sounds soooooooo corny hahaha but ya we had fun and jess told me some pretty good things that i liked to hear lol but ya i guess im excited for sunday and sunday and sunday hopefully sunday haha i am home alone and everyone is gone and normally id be on the phone but no and ya i was really whatever yesterday but i guess today im just like calmer and in withdrawel as much today as sarah would call it i was in withdrawel yesterday and ya but today im not really as bad i guess i dont really care if i hear from them today buti dont know ya im just mummbling on today we have a game yeah im excited i want to kick butt oh and i guess i might play goalie ahhh i dont want to but then again i think id be fun to try but i dont know id be cool i keep on getting put as defence i hate defence cuz i have no idea what the hell im doin but whatever i think im back there cuz the only thing i can do it kick the ball lol but ya so i dont know i want to be forward but no he puts all the new girls in forward nooooooooooooo thats bad cuz thats my spot i think rausum or however you spell it or here doug well i think he's starting to notice me but i dont think he knows my name cuz he calls me torkelson because he only remembers that im erica torkelsons sister and thats about it im just the younger sister and he doesnt really care about me and doesnt pay attention to me he just knows me as torkelson ericas little sister just like everyone else and dont get me wrong cuz its awesome to be known as ericas sister and everything cuz ericas cool and left a good name for me but i just kind of want to make my own name and its not just torkelson its jessica i want to be me not the little sister cuz im not little but whatever as long as he starts at least noticing me then i guess im doin good and i guess at least he knows my name but ya i hope our game goes well and i hope i get to play enough im excited but i dont feel good cuz i ate and its needing to digest more haha cuz otherwise im not gonna feel good oh ya not good .. now that i think about it i think i just might finish that diary bye