blah blah blah.. everything is so confusing to me.. i dont know what to think anymore.. im sick of willmar starting now.. i want to leave go to a different town just to see what life would be like.. how different it would be.. im so sick of people im sick of being the person that i am.. i just want to go.. for a while i suppose.. until i change.. and until this town changes.. i dont know what to do.. i seem to have dug myself into a hole and have had problems.. thinking about it all day today.. damn holes.. blah they are stupid.. and should rot in hell.. i like being at home though.. it is nice.. and erica and ian leave tomorrow which makes me sad.. cuz i like them here i think its a better atmosphere in the house.. like and theres more food.. as erica needed some cuz she got her wisdom teeth taken out yesterday..and i hadnt talked to her for a whole day i felt bad.. i love her.. and food.. that is in the house.. lol.. im tired.. last night we got home at like 12 and i went to like bed at like 2 which loyally sucked.. blah.. i felt like blah today i felt like shit i dont know why im just sick of being here. im sick of just everything and i dont understand necassarily why.. blah .. i cant wait for friday i hope i go..! snowboarding bitches..! blah maybe that will be the distance for leaving for me.. as i will be with christa.. and no willmarians it will hopefully be good.. me+christa+hills+boards=good times+excitment=kimball... i think i shall quit here im gonna go watch a movie.. a chick flick. MARY IS IN MY PRAYERS.. AND SARAH AND FAMILY.. I LOVE THEM..