this is for all of you who think i need to update.. yes it has been a while quiet a long while i was just like hmm maybe ill go update so here i am doin it for all of you... blah blah blah i saw my sissy whom i love this last thursday yeah she's beyond awesome and she brought my shirts and luckily mom and dad brought those pants cuz i forgot about it yeah for mom yeah for the shirts yeah for everything that has to do with my family cuz i love them all and i got to see connor from cwf that was awesome i forgot.. hmm i think i emailed him.. i should see if he emailed me back.. coolio.. haha i dont know what to think of what tanner has spoken to me about.. i do have to say i miss him.. bad jessica.. bad bad.. bad for admitting it.. but if what tanner thinks is true.. then there is hope.. i hope i hope for many things.. i do want to see him again.. but i dont know if i should.. i hope what tanner said is true.. but then again i cant let that get to me.. augh waiting till february when the snow will hopefully be here oh i hope there will maybe we'll all have a jolly o'good time ill think upon who to invite haha me and a bunch of those guys would be fun but then maybe a friend would help too beings i dont want to be alone with no one to hang with hmm i dont know.. augh i hope what tanner said was true.. poor boy then.. but then why doesnt he talk to me.. is it because he's afraid to.. he doesnt want to fall into my trap again or something.. i shall leave i want to say what i shouldnt because something else that i wont want will happen when i admit it.. cuz everything always backfires when i admit the opposite ending line