so my face is pretty much a compiled bunch of skin cancer.. im pretty much almost positive..you can just see where its really bad and stuff and its like literally really bad not only is it my forehead but now my cheeks are showing it pretty badly too.. last night sucked.. i was rather dissapointed but not only that but kind of peeved.. so sonshine got rained out which made me mad as newsboys were gonna be playing and i kind of wanted to see them but it was all good cuz then we went to perkins and then went to sarahs where dearest eric joined up with us.. eventually we decided to go to cash wise.. and everyone seemed to get kind of crabby or something.. i dont know but were never renting movies again.. and i was kind of mad that i got the urbz game cuz i wont even really be able to play it.. which is dumb.. so then anyway.. we get back and started watching duece bigalow.. sarah fell asleep.. so me eric and chad were still awake.. and andrea voorhees comes down it must have been around 11 or so and was like are you guys staying down here tonight.. and were like yeah.. and shes like ok then went back up.. then after about a half hour.. everyone comes down.. and they start drinking.. woohoo.. let there party begin jerks.. damn spank.. so then were still watching movie.. it ends we put in other movie.. start watching it.. well we didnt really watch it because there was to much noise so instead i think chad fell asleep and eric and i just talked.. and then it was like 12 and eric being the good boy says he has to go home cuz of my cerfew.. so he left me.. so after that i went to sleep.. partially.. i woke up about an hour later to find no sarah or chad i was like uh great.. now i have no one.. so i asked alyssa where she was shes like i think she is in there.. but i didnt want to get up because i didnt feel like talking to the rejects.. so i stayed there laying on the couch on and off in a sleep.. trying to zone them out.. but drunks just get louder and louder and louder.. and yeah they can be funny but not when your trying to sleep.. and i would have left the room looking for sarah but i didnt want to go into any random room because then you never know if sarah is really in there.. ya never know what youll find instead.. chris' friends are gross.. so i specifically remember watching my clock at 4 waiting... debating.. contemplating.. then officially decided after about 4.30 i was leaving at 5 and if i was asked questions i would say i had to go home at 5 which really i had to leave at 6.30 but i figured that i would want at least a few hours before going to deliver the papers at sonshine.. then figured id sleep afterwards.. so i went home.. dad was awake getting ready for work.. eating outmeal.. i wasnt sure what he thought of me coming home.. i think he would have wanted me home sooner.. mom said i should have left when eric did.. dad thought it was respectful of him to leave at dads cerfew time.. i dont think that i know what to even think.. im kind of mad that i didnt get awoken to be told to go to a different room.. its not my house i dont know where im suppose to go.. alana would have been able to but alana is more like the one to just walk out of things.. i procrastinate.. and am not able.. oh and alyssa was with them and.. alyssa is sarahs cousin.. and she like was laughing with them.. she was having fun i suppose.. not drinking.. but just talking and listening to them.. and im not sure but i think they were getting close to her.. and then i think it was matt who was like you need to leave i like you a lot and am not getting anything back from you i dont feel that you like me back i dont feel the conection.. oh and they called her boyfriend and she knew it as she gave them her phone and was laughing.. and what i think was her boyfriend.. they left a message to at lik 3 in the morning.. saying that they were gonna fucking kill him and blah blah fucking blah.. and i was like wow that was stupid and they or she could get in big trouble for that really.. but i think it was matt who told her to leave cuz he loved her to much and wasnt feeling the love back.. so she had to leave so she went upstairs.. and when she went upstairs he's like dude chris your cousin has big jugs and i was like uh ok.. ya im totally ready to leave.. they were loud and annoying.. and i have to work and got no sleep.. damn them to hell the fucking retards who want to ruin there lives.. they need to grow up and get lives drinking every fucking night or every once in a while isnt gonna do any good for them.. theyll destroy there livers.. and its gonna take them no where.. im glad you got out of that group.. i dont want to and wont grow up like that..