im sick and im really sad like i want erica home so i can cry on her shoulder like normally i cant though cuz she always is with her friends and its just not the same erica that i could talk to and eveytime i talk to her she always has to tell all of her stupid friends and if its about boys then they tease me and i hate it i cant tell her anything and right now i miss that cuz i want to tell her everything i want to spill my guts and have nothing left but a dead beating heart no one else use to understand or care or listen theyre just like ya and give you a shoulder to cry on but erica would give you a shoulder and much much more i want her so bad i want to tell her everything good and bad and shes not on msn so i cant tell her on there i want to wright everything down so maybe she'll read it and relize how much shes missed and the pain i go through because shes not home to here me Today is ok i got the solo in our choir and ive only told joanna and she might tell jess and i told sarah and im gonna leave it a surprise for the rest of my grade because im in a different music group then they are im in varsity and theyre in concert im in varsity cuz im in orchestra so ya i got the solo and stuff i was so excited and my day started pretty good cuz like i got to school and stuff then the bell rang so we had to get to class and so me and britty were goin to choir and jason comes up behind me and jumps on my back and hes like i want a piggy back ride run, faster and like ya so i brought him over until i got to the choir room and sat him down and stuff then had to go to class and stuff so i said bye and went to class so thats like my morning and it all went pretty good gym was ok ?? were swimming what fun! well then goin to comm i have amanda in my class and jaimie the only two ppl and amanda kind of tears me down and it kind of effects me but she obviously doesn't know that well anyways i was on my way to the commons and pass by my little crush and he's walking with this preppy girl whom which i despise, LIZ FLANN and i hate her now she's taken me away from what i wanted someone i liked she's not even his type and stuff and i guess according to joanna theyre kind of like liking each other he asked her out a long while ago and i guess now all she talks about in classes is him and so ya i think they were gonna wait until she's older but looks to me that theyre not gonna wait to much longer im torn up me and sarah might go to his meet tonight and then go christmas shopping for our friends afterwords so ya fun im not so sad now i think ive gotten rid of all my tears and im done now i just have to get rid of my sniffles cuz of my being sick and stuff hopefully ill be better by monday thats when our concert is i cant wait to surprise everybody in my grade to show a 9th grader got a solo in varsity i cant wait in your faces bitches (( not you ) my classmates))