this is a delightfully funny word - satisfied - you could take it in the inpolite nasty way or just as a way of saying ya you know im fine im cool with they my life is right now but like its just interesting.. yet so is this diary.. i write in it for others to read but not very many do and even those i know dont really read it not eve te ones who i even really care about but whatever that really has nothing to do with it but i do point out my lovely darling sister does because she loves me and i love her and we're just this adoring loving happy family haha that sounds sooo corny i just had to put it in but ya the reason of writing this to tell all of those out there that are interested was that i got my digital camera today it's sooo cool all though i owe my dad like 50$ cuz i got a few extra things but ya im so excited for cwf now i have a camera i have a camera case and everything for pictures now all i need is a few jeans and ill be set and ready to go im excited but ya oh the guy that sold us our camera was a total HOTTIE whoofta haha he was like probably 20 somethin but man he was hot and it was funny cuz he spooked me and i jumped cuz im stupid and im pretty good at embarassing myself but he was pretty nice and totally awesome haha ya and we went to chipotles.. there is 3 knew t-shirts and thats all i want for christmas like man i need to have like 30$ and ill be satisfied anyone wanting to donate to the jessica needing clothes fund can send me some extra cash cuz i wouldnt mind and like ya i totally wouldnt mindand ya id be totally satisfied.. augh im tired oh ya yesterday when i was totally working at games lake like oh my gosh ben and aj were at the beach luckily they didnt come over to talk to me the retarded ben ya and but anyways it made me think of school and gus and so i was thinkin of whats his name and like whoa i was on my lunch break talking with my mom and he's walking bye and he didnt notice me until he was already past me and then some kid stole his hat and ran back towards me and past me and he saw me and he's like whoa i know you kind of look i kept watching for him and lookin at him gosh i do like him he's totally cute but totally not obviously for me beings even at the beach he cant come and talk to me plus he supposedly has a girlfriend but ya whatever no matter who the guy is that i like they always have a girlfriend cuz there retarded and like its really wierd cuz when i think of a certain guy he just kind of shows up at the place where im at which is wierd cuz it happened today too ya talk about creepy augh i cant get over seeing him yesterday i need to put it aside cuz i wont be able to see him until next year it'd be funny if he switched to new london and then next year when i go to school with sarah ill maybe get to see him or maybe when im with christa and like maybe we could get to hang out some time but ya know whatever who wants to hang out with pittiful jessica haha no not really pittiful unless thats how you want to describe because maybe you the person reading this are actually a person who despises me you hate my guts inside and out and your sick of hearing me and sick of everything i do and say and you want to stop reading this but now that i pointed you out you just cant stop but to notice that you are reading this still cuz im writing about you specifically and your wondering how i knew someone like you would read this .. well dont worry im not pointing fingers cuz i dont think to many people would read this and to find someone that totally despices on such an internet site that there is well wow power to ya even if you are my enemy you should leave some comment maybe we'll end up on each others friends list well im gonna stop talking about some person that doesnt excist ya so im gonna go to bed so ya im tired nighty tight