actually i feel befuffled but they dont have that maybe because i made it up lol... ok so my life at the moment is a world pool i feel acwuired yet then happy everything is a mystery... i cant wait till my trip to florida which is comin up and im really looking forward to it cuz then i get to read harry potter hopefully lol hehe im wierd but ya im excited and guess what the 6th harry potter is comin out in june that means when i go to washington ill be able to bring it with me yeah... ugh me and sarah are talking and it makes me sad cuz im like saying stuff about like the old jessica the one who got picked on the one who was a loser and fat and very ugly like when i was in like 4th grade i had long hair like all of my elementry years i had long hair and i was told it was pretty but really it was ugly but i remember all the time about one time and this is why i despite brianna ferholz is because in 4th grade i used to like jared hennen and like on the last day of school her mariah and brittany swartz told me he wanted to go out with me cuz i mean they were my "friends" and i believed them and stuff and i dont remember what they did but i did something and i remember goin downstairs cuz we were in a different room and we were goin back to the classroom and like i remember goin down stairs and this was towards the end of the day so erica was there and i started crying in her arms and like they came out cuz the class was passing out popsicles and like me and erica were in the hall and they came out to give me one and i was like sure (ill have a popsicle) well and there like whats wrong with jessica and erica was crying to cuz shed cry if i was crying cuz she was like that and well like shes like we just found out our grandpa died even though he didnt and she was just covering up for me i lover erica but back to the whole loser life i rememer in 6th grade i just hated it like my class consisted of all girls who are now a days preps and bitches and a big bunch of jerks and sad part is that the girls that were my friends which were like 4 of them well each of them moved away all of them well except like liz clark who had a baby but ya i was a loser the thing that kept me alive that year is mr stier its just really kind of depressing to go back and think about some of the times like i was really fat and the only reason why im "skinnier" is because i got taller and luckily i lost the glasses for contacts yet i want those thick ones but that wont happen but ya and i finally cut my hair in 6th grade that was the best change in life i ever made i donated it so i felt pretty special beings the fact that my girl scout troop leader died that year of cancer and had to go through kemo and had to have a wig yes but gettin off of the ugly child subject...so like boys now sarah and alana might go to the movies and like i feel dumb cuz there bringin there guy friends and they want to ask donald duck whether i ask or they do alana says shes gonna ask him cuz she especially wants to know if he likes me or not well alana again and again will i tell you no he does not like me whats there to like about me im loud fat annoying ugly and im an ass oh and hey once i find out a guy likes me i start not liking him i dont know why i just do yes its dumb but its the story of my life so i feel sorry for any boy that starts liking me not that they would (reasons listed above) well next stories... i feel so dumb like i cant do anything cuz of my mom and her bad back and shit and i feel like i cant go anywhere cuz mom is such a pain like ya ok i believe you already ok good gosh shut the hell up woman and deal with it like i hate it i have been wanting to go shopping well i dont like shoppin with dad cuz i always feel bad and i feel bad with mom but it dont matter cuz she cant do anything anyways like i need things for school but no we cant go fricken shopping well and then theres the whole money situation which isnt to bad of a problem yet at the same time it is but ya not getting into that but i wanted to get everything out and i think i did a good job at it but i think this is the end a good night so fare well no guy would like me whether i was beautiful or skinny its just the fact that its me