okay so i think i left off at me telling you all about teh party right? okay well lets get you die-hard fans up dated... it all started when he sliped teh date rape drug into my drink and.... wait! thats not reality! never mind... hold on here...let me try and recall the events that have taken place.... so umm well i guess it woiuld be after school one day about 3 or so days ago when this kid Corry and me were talking... now Hayden had been very strange and all... not talking to me and such. so i was outside "the shop" talking to Corry and i didn't realize Hayden was at the counter inside (you could clearly haer us) anyways so we wree just talkign when i notcied that he was in tehre so i yelled in "thankx for comming out and saying hi, love you too!" (most of you probably know that when i say "love you too" its sarcasim indicateing that i feel unloved...) anywqys so he says "well i didn't see you out there." MY ASS HE DIDN'T!!! so he comes out and stands there beside me... i didn't think much of it cuz for teh past while hes been doing that. anywyas so yes Corry and me comtinued to talk and i told him that i would hang out with him after school the next day... So the next day roles around and i go with Liss (Melissa) to Corry's house and we get him and go back to my place. so Liss goes home and guess who wlks in with Goggles? (Greg = Goggles)Hayden does. he didn't look to inpressed. anyways so in the end Hayden is on the couch "sleeping" and he isn't really. and yler, Sarah... just a whoel wack load of people come over and were all ahnging out... my house is liek "THE" hangout place for after school and you don't knock you just come in. my mom calls it teh "safe house" its so kids can get away and hide from the real world for an hour or two or hide from parents. anyways so Corry fucks off somewhere and Hayden still pretends to sleep cuz he always does that so me, Kurt, and Sarah all go to her house and veg outside and we talk about Hayden and what his problem had been lately. and Kurts like "well maybe its cuz of Lindsy" now ever since Lindsy came down he has been acting strange... so i gave Kurt a point for that one... anywyas so yes i kept that in my mind... all of a sudden my cell rings and its Age. she starts talking to me about Hayden and saying how he was jelous of Corry. (now the truth comes out...) she's says "he dosn't think he should have to compete witha 17 year old guy" so this is how the rest of teh convo went... Me: "Fuck off! whatever! okay first of all i had no idea, it would be nice if he told me these things. Second of all i personally think taht he isn't proud to have me as his girlfriend because he shure as hell dosn't show it. i was just TALKING to Corry. he coudl of come out. i also said that i'd hangout with him after school, which i did. i tryed calling both of you but you weren't home-instead you were in Drum. so i think this is bullshit cuz if he was jelous of him he could have acted liek he was proud of me and gone up to me and hugged or kissed me signifiying that we were to gether. i didn't do any of that because i didn't see teh harm in all of it. And the fact taht he pretended to sleep on the couch is stupid." Age: ".... well he shouldn't HAVE to do that...: (meaning show Corry up by hugging meor omething.) Me: "No he shouldn't have to but he didn't even try..." well taht was pritty much teh convo. so the next day... he came over and i was cleanign and awe kinda got it our that we had to comunicate more. enough of this EMo bullshit. i don't mind it but not when you want everyone to pay atention to you. thats stupid i also spazed on him about what i just told you all. so it was intence. anyways i then went to Calgary ranting to my mom about the whol pradicament and her saying i should probably brake up with him... (takeing in to consideration a factor that im sure only some of you will find out shortly if you don't allready know..) anywyas so i went and got my GUITAR!!!! rock on! whos a rock star? whos a rick star?! I Am!!! anywyas so today it was perfact.. like me and hayden... it was like when before we started going out... he was flerty and i felt comfortable and flirty back. it was great! it hadn't been this way since we started going out. but he still keeps saying/hinting that he wants to have sex with me... the answer: HELL NO! and i know he dosn't really really like me because if he did then he wouyld say at least once taht i was butiful or very pritty but he says im hot. my my told me to take that as a major compliment cuz it means he loves alot of things about me. she also said that when i told him we might need to talka a brake for him to get over lindasy taht he must liek me an offul lot cuz the last time he broke up with her he carved her name into his arm and he didn't this time. i really couldn't say. he says i make him happy. im glad i make him happy. so all in all things have been weird and i have so many people to call... At the end of the day I just think I should sit back and sigh. So lets all sigh to the stars… Later Days! *~Ashley~*