so a while back i had this date with this girl Colleen. she is really pretty and i like her. but it feles strange dating a girl. i mean i have the boy datign thing down pat for th emost part but not the dating girl part. but our last date which was at a coffee shop down town waas awesome. and maybe tomorow we might hang out.

yeasterday i went over to Krystals house and god damn was that fucked up, Dallas kept hittign on me and his friend comes up stairs cuz aperantly he wante dto meet me and gives me a big hug andsays i smell good haha. and Cam, Krystals ex, said i got thinner..... i don;t know how to take that. Then her brother Jason has some fat ugly bitch over who can't stop staring at me and Krystal and her three year old son is sleepign there while almost everyone around him is high oncrack, weed and drunk. and then the mom starts giving Jasona blow job..... holy fuck! i couldn't take it. i walkked up stairs.

Garry and i have been on the outs but tonight was fucked up. i totally had like an out of body experience.... it was fucked. and then i just started crying and then al these strange things started happining... like my third eye.... differant stones started showing me images and then this angel guy came to me and gave me a white stone as a gift and told me that my spirit animal for right now was crab.

when Garry and i looked it up, it made so much sence. the fucked up thing is i really don;t bileave in this crap and you all have no idea how long or hard i cryed because i bileavedit this time. it was so fucked.

well thats all for now.

Later Days

*~Ashley~*