so its 2:42 at night, and i've downloaded soem new songs. ugg i can't get to sleep. it sucks. and as im sure most of you know i am anti-drug. even over-the-counter drugs. i even hate alcohol. well to much of it. i had a slow mug of beer tonight. JAson had come over and chilled with me which was fine and dandy but unfortunutly he is on the prowl. same with Hayden and Squirt. i don't want to be the game. uggg. anyways... and JAmes (my ex-boyfriend) is hitting on and making moves on other girls... and they aren't taht good looking. however it shouldn't come to a s surprise. i just still love him. and remember Love is the meaning behind it. i have lots of school crap that i sslowly getting sorted out. and im still an insomniac. i don't mind but it causes some conserns for my schooling a bit. i home school though. and my jobs were becoming an issue. i was thinking of doing 4. but i've cutt down. i really want to this summer be a camp councilor. maybe ill convince my friend to do it with me. that way she can put it on her resume for teaching. My mom wants me to start taking my sleeping pills. but they make me hilusinate. i dont know if i want to. she also said that "you better not be talking to that Nick guy. he goves you trouble." long story behind that but meh. anyways i should brush my teeth againa nd maybe take a pill or just crash. Later Days! *~Ashley~*