i had an awesome time at Dane Cook. it was so amazing. he was funny as hell. th eonly bad part was all night Garry kept checking out the girls walking up and downn the stairs. i can;t seem to make him understand that just because im bi dosen;t mean i don;t care if he stairs at other girls. fuck. anyways... he has just been so distant and i finally told him int he car a bit of whats been going on with me. we almost broke up tonight. we will soon. i can't do it anymore. frick. i love him so much htough. and i hate him for not being able to doit. not being able to have this relationship with me. and i hate myself for loving him. i hate it so much. he should have never had this stupid relationship with me! fuck! if he knew it wasn;t going to go anywhere then why the hell did he get into one with me? i can;t stop crying and i hate it. -later days *~ashley~*