She is such a lying bitch... and i'm such a stupid bitch.

bitch

She told me a long time ago... she texted me "i'm jelous, im jelous your with him." THEN!!! she told me on the phone "I will wait for you" so my question is why do girls lie? why do they say what they don;t mean? I have NEVER done that, and when it comes to peoples emotions i would never.

As for Sean... I adore him. He will ALWAYS be my leather wearing boy. I'm sad after only four months im heartbroken. I feel like a train wreak. and yet here i set texting her and feeling shitty becasues i still have a small crush on her... when i think really i'm just trying to fill the void with something so that i won't think about him anymore.

I cuddled with Jared a week or so ago... and I loved it... but it made me miss Sean more. Call me old fashion but i need that closer and that ending... I need that hurt, the burn and the stiches...

I am me. I am who i am

i love black and whites, I can't spell worth shit, i love surprise kisses, I love simplicity, I can handle anything gross, I wanted to be a sniped since i was 7, I like girls and boys, I can love more than one person, i am capable of love, i hate real relationships, I don;t screw around, i NEVER wear the same socks, I like beer, I love to be seen, and at times i hate when people look at me, i am one of the few girls that love their bodies, at the age of 10 i was requested for modeling, I want to go on a road trip, i work the best with chaos, i run at times, and at times i stay to grounded, i don't bileave my mother or my father always loved me, i always say what i mean, when i say "i'm ok" it really means i'm not... i'm always ok... it's just other things that aren't lol... i'm sure there are lots more... but those are what i can think of off the top of my head

*sigh*

Later Days

*~Ashley~*