SO here I sit naked while my boyfriend is in the background…. Anyways… things have been really fucked up I mean im sorry everyone. Im not trying to lose contact with you guys but its hard since im moved out, in a relationship, school coming up and just stress between friends. I mena I know that’s no excuse. Isn’t that always how it is? And I know this is really off topic but….: I fucking hate how everyone latly has been saying “oh Ashley if you start anything ill fuvking kick your ass!” do you not understand people that I may be a superhero but I can do whatever the fuck I want. If I want to start smoking which everyone seems to do but is high against me doing, then that’s my business. If I want to smoke weed then fucking bite me! The more people keep telling me to not do it it makes me want to. Im going to explaine something to everyone whop reads this right now. I am like a fucking crab… I mean if I don’t like my life or the way its going I can ditch it and everyone else in it with the snap of my fingers. I mean I’ve changed so much through out my life an dnow this is the stage im at but latly its been getting retarded. I mean im loosing friends it seems like again…. I want to hold on to all you guys… I love you Morgan, I love you Amanda, I need you bailey… Kayla im still here… The list goes on. I just want to keep in touch. Partly because I still care about the past even though I can ditch it. But seriously everything else I can handle but is it now a set thing that I can NEVER do drugs or anything? I mean I hate to say it but im starting to get a little interested in it. Just weed mind you. I know that’s not really a bad thing but I don’t know. And despite what some of you might think its NOT because im constantl;y around people who do it. Im serious. |James smokes so much and so do the others who hang out with him. Bailey we need to talk, there is so much we need to get out to each other. “back seat windows up that’s the way we like to fuck…” I miss old times. I miss those dance-tech songs playing as your smashed drunk while you watch that boy in the cornmor praying that while he’s on the prowl or making out with some skank that maybe he’lll notice you. Anyways…. I have what I want but I don’t know I think it would be fun to have one of the “back in the day” partys. I mean everyone ahs those that they miss. Hahaha…. Well I sapose im just rabaling now. Oh! One more rant…l.l NICK! What the fuck? Im serious I don’t mean to be a bitch but im hurt. You never call or send me shit on nex or even an e-mail. I don’t give a flying fuck if you and james are ina tiff you can still at least say hi once in a while. I don’t know im probably missing something in the picture. Well I should get going… *sigh* I hope to here from you guys later. Later Days! *~ Ashley~*