This is a letter taht my frien Nick Sent em from Penticton over Nexopia. oh man. i don't know when i got this... holy man. i thought awwww... that is teh sweetest thing ever. i really, really like him. but i actually do. not like when you are obssesed with someone and say "oh i liek him!" i like everythign about him. EVERYTHING! i hope its not love. i don't think it is people so we are safe so far. but i don't want anyone to fall in love with me because i don't want them to be heart broken. and i don't want to be my self. i just want to finish school. i want to go hang out with Nick and i don't want to leave. i'd leave all this in a heart beat. but teher really isn't a way to do that. i just hope i can see him soon. anwyas this is the latter: "I nkow i said never to listen to me when I'm drunk, but I know that you're going to read this. Smart Ashley. there's alot of things I need to be honest with you about.... like the whole emotions thing. I mean I know you said not to love you, but I think I might be falling for you. Everything I've ever imagined in a girl, you have.... its amazing. Like nothing I've ever seen in anyone... you're smart, beautiful, mature (but sometimes immature too, which is good) and everything.... its just those fucking mountains. If you where here, I'd ask you out in a moment, no second thoughts.... I love the single life, but I think I would be happier with you than anyone else I;ve ever even thought about being with. I don;t quite know what else to say.. I know I'm going to reget things like this in the morning, but I think you need to know it.... I mean I don't like hiding things from people I care about. I was just so scared about scaring you away... I mean you've never met me before, I didn't wan you to think that I was some kind of creeper guy. Like i told you that I don't say "i love you" unless i really mean it...and I was serious about my record being like 2 months into a relaitonship. But for some reason thigns are just different... something is strange this time. But that fucking distance.... its just too much, I would hurt you if we tried to date, I know it. When you come down, I'm going to be the happiest guy ever.... I seriously don't think I'll want to stop hugging you... just the idea of it makes me happy. Hell, just talking to you on the phone makes me happy.... something about you just makes everything work.... I don't know what it is. Just something about you is completely amazing... like nohting I;ve ever seen in any girl. Don't ever settle for second best, and be happy with whatever guy makes you happy. And always remember that you desreve the best... ~NicK!~~~ the drunbken monkey <_>" wow eh? he says that he is really, really honest when he is drunk. and taht he like never lies. well if this is true i don't know. i feel the same way about him. but i don't want anyone to know. even wiht him.... i ... i don't know.... it's .... it's just that it feels .... right. everything. i really, really liek him. and like i said after reading that letter it's liek he knew how i felt. then again im worried cuz he was drunk so if that isn't how he feels about me then i don't want to know. but i liek him soooo much. anyways... my drenilin is getting up there. i should go and do somethign like study science to get this ll of my mind. (you know whats funny though... i don't want this feeling to leave. ushually i do. like id feel funny and want me to be normal again but to be honest i love this feelign and i want it to stay. so i know that even if i go off and study it won't leave and i really hope it dosn't either.) Well Later Days! *~Ashley~* <3 im just speachless.