So *sigh* Trina friken told Jason that i told her he was hitting on me. fuck that was a close one. but it;'s all sorted out now. i've just been so bust lately that i can't go and see anyone really. i guess it didn't help much that im hanging out with Ashley and Josh lately either. man they are having some issues, they have the cutest baby girl ever! however they both have a lot of issues and personally i just don't think they should be together. oh! before i forget... some memories to remember... One time Dustin said "ya so i heard it was your birthday..." "ya it was on the 9th" "well i didn't get you anything so here.." and he freaking kisses me on the cheek! i couldn't bileave it! Another time Trina wrote me a note saying that if her and (her now ex-boyfriend) boyfriend ever broke up that she would totally want t go otu with me...or something like that. funny story behind that one however... see she kinda turned into a christian and is with this guy blake and is very gainst gay people of any sort. haha kinda freaky eh? anywyas back to what i was saying before... so basically last night i had a nother threesome with Ash and Josh... it sucked, i've never felt like a prostitute but i did last ngiht... however i didn't get paid. lol well they were just fighting a bunch and Ashley wasn't having a very good tiome and og man it just sucked... however last time rocked. ya... i really don't want to have another one. and Me and Hayden had sex like 3 time... the first time i was drunk the second time we both were and the third we were sober. Later JAmes found out and spazed. i had the need to remind him that we weren't together but somehow i didn't want him to be sad. ugg it was stupid. and Trina (his sister) was going on about how "you have to pick! either your with my brother or your not!" i tryed telling her that he only came down three times. the first time we had sex and his truck broke down... the ssecond time he came down was for my birthday and i told her we didn't have sex but we really did.... the third time was when we went to a hotel for a weekend and obviously we had sex then too. man she has to learn to stay out of peoples business. but ya later she tells Sara and Kyla all this stuff about ae and JAmes when she shouldn't have... she basically made it sound liek i was a slut. it hurt my feelings and i went home and cryed. im still alittle mad. I was also Jimmy's esscort to grad, he wore a white pin stripe suit with his white hat and hot pink vest.. i wore my black 17 b-day dress, with a hot pink bowwa and a black hat to match and hot pink bracelet. everyone loved it. the girls at grad all looked amazing!. i really wat pics of them all. and Sara looked good too. however her and her date almost got themselves killed cuz they started his car and all the monoxide or whatever it's called wqas building up in their car. luckly James opend it and i grabbed the keys. the car was turned off and i started walking away... then both jame and hayden were yelling at me to give them the keys so they could roll the windows down i said no...(i didn't want to be responsible for anyones death or anything) so i dropped them where i was... later after James rolled the windows down he comes up to me and started yelling ta me "why the fuck do you disrespect me in front of people?!" i wanted to tell the fucking son of a bitch off! but i just pushed him away ad said fuck you! and began crying for the second time. Hayden prior to that had already made me cry by saying hurtfull things and making me sound like a slut. by saying stuff like "you have to decide! either me or him..... you left me for james!.... ya it kinda hurts when a girl you like goes to a hotlel for a weekend and fucks her ex-boyfriend!" man i pushed hima nd told him to fuck off like 3 times. ya so he can go to hell for all i care.