Yup so I got pretty freaked out and I had nightmares last night because of Hayden. I thought he was going to strangle me. We were sitting there and I way kind of laying near him and I we were talking about how we both had kind of a bad day. He said he almost hit a girl cuz they were making fun of him and Danika (his girl friend) and he was a little edgy all day but nothing out of the ordinary. So basically I was just laying nest to him talking and I told him how I’ve been really down on my self about my marks and im trying to crack down on my work. Then I start going all psychological and tell him I think its funny when he rolls his eyes back in his head because that means that he’s really sad or really mad/sad. And how he always says “Whatever…” when he’s pissed off and he was smiling while I told him this. We kept talking and I finally said “I think its funny because you never like hearing the truth and you like to live in your own little world.” All of a sudden he reaches over and sits up a bit and puts his hand on my neck and my jaw bone and puts a little pressure. I tried to lift his fingers off a little but he applied more pressure. I kept moving my legs (I didn’t know why at the time but later when I told me mom she said it was a safety thing) so he’s like an inch away from my face and he says “ ya I do live in my own little world and I would appreciate if you would fuck off and stop analyzing me!” (not word for word cuz I left out a sentence or two.) but ya. Then he let go and laid back down. I got up and laughed then moved to the end of my bed and put my binder on my lap. It was so scary. I was smiling at him when he held my throat/jaw and I think he was pissed at that cuz it seemed like I wasn’t afraid then. 10 minutes passed with silence and my mom called out “time for Hayden to leave!” so he left. As soon as he did I called Nick and told him everything he asked if I was okay and I said “ya, I guess” it was weird. And I couldn’t hit him cuz if he got that way with me just talking to him I don’t want to know what would have happened if I had hit him. That is total physical abuse. I’ve never really had to deal with that before. Well now I know I can handle it and I WILL lay a smack down on ANYONE who trys something like that or worst again. Well I should get going… Later Days! *~Ashley~* (PS Bailey and everyone else should call me.)