even though Craig (can't spell) sits on the couch talking on his cell to one of his many lady friends.... all i really want/need is a simple hug. a meaningless simple hug. am i doing the right thing? i mean i have so many opinions about parenting and how the people i know should be raising their kids. i mean will i ever be a good mom if a mom at all? i just don't want kids to grow up in this world without a fighting chance. *sigh* maybe i ahve it all wrong. anyways me and .... ya just ended the thing we had going...i can't do it without an actual relationship.... which i don't know if he even wants. i would love one with him but then there is the Nick factor, and all though i love him with all my heart i can't help but tell him later that i can't without him figuring stuff out fop rhim and his son. fuck anyways... i should go to bed... i'll eat some fruit check my e-mails and go to bed.... while dreaming and hopping and..... intending about...... ya. Later Days *~Ashley~*