sooooo . update. first off i got blueberries and i know Garyr loves them so i brought some to work for him. he was so happy and it made me happy seeign him that way :) secondly i went food shopping. a real one. i almost ahve everythign now :) third. me and Patrick are nearly done with our friendship and now all the retarded, non-friend things he dose don't ven bother me naymore. thanks for recking it buddy ;) fourth i htink someone should seriously let ptrick know that IF HE EVER OVER STEPS THE LINE from my simple rules( which lets face oit are veyr hard to cross) he will be sadly mistaken to find out i take vene less crap from people that i don't know. fucker. fith... (whihc is saposed to be fifth... but i don't say it that way) i also went swimming with MArina, he rboyfriend Andrew and garry.... fuck Marina is hot! and last... teh up date with me and nick: *sigh* things have gotten better with the whoel talking thing. i quite enjoiy it. i feel like i used to again (finally it took long neough eh) and i enjoy talking to him. we talk almost verey day. and i still am very excited to see the number and now there is a new excitment... the egarness that maybe i'll hear demi on the other end too. and gurgle or two.... :) sadly though.... wlel not sadly just strangly, he has a new girl Kat and they are not dating but they are living together and things are starting to happen between them. i want to tell him to just stop being a fuck head and date hger already and i nearly every time roll ym eyes at the fact that he claimes they won't. piff to that. tyhe only problem i have is that if they do suddenly start a relationship i will be angry and not for my self but for the fact of demi. i don't bileave peopel should go in and out of kids lives, of course there is so much to take inot consideratiuon of that. i just see it happaning. and i sapose if they are going to have sex, fall in love with each other, live with each other and not really sleep with nayone else then isn't that like dating? might as well right? *sigh* ya its a strange emotion and i haven't quite placed my actuall feelings on it. but i assure everyone... i WILL get to the bottom of that. i don't like to waver on my emotions. i like to know them. it makes for an easier life style later. anyways... i ahve to go. everyone is asking me when im doen my lunch i still have 15 mins fuckers! and i swear ot god if none of those orders are doen back there i will shit bricks! LAter Days! *~Ashley~*