oh Patrick.... the jelousy that sonsumes you. Patrick really has been a great friend for the most part and at times he can go those few steps extra to help me out which i have never for a minute ignored. i take anything someone dose for me to heart and i deeply apreciate those things. we had a fihgt though. last night Garry had come over (keeping in mind i see patrick at work and i live above him) anyways Patrick wne out with his friend Jynell and they wen't for a few drinks. when he came back (Garry would have come over regardless) he came up the stairs. i came to the door and said in a rude tone (not menaing to of course) "what?" the light was in my eye and i couldn't quite see i was about to say "sorry dude that came out wrong" when he turned on his heel with a wave of his hand (almost saying 'nevermind' and left down the stairs. i attpemted to call after him but to no avail he simply shut the door and did not respond. i turned around and shut my own door mad. i told Garry. Garry seemed to have more sympathy for Patrick then i did.... then i still do. it was later that i informed Patrick he gets special treatment from me and if it was nayone else i would have ran down the stairs threw open his door and yellingly (i know its not a word) said "what the hell is your problem?!" but i did not. he had been drinking and Garry left imidiatly after. about 15 minutes after Patrick came up stairs. i was furious. i wasn't going to tlk to him at first but the mature part of my personality got the better of me and i decided a talk was in order. i just shook my head. i hate when people have been drinking and something like this happens. in the end we had a long talk and i did end up raising my voice more than once. Im sure any one who actually knows me would know that that is very hard to do and once you do it, it is NOT a good thing. its sorta a 'back out while she is reaching for the knife' thing. anyways... he even made the coment "well what have you two done for me?! nothing! you don't care about me! no one cares about Patrick!" now really.... do you think that is a wise thing to say to me? to sya to Ashley.... hahaha i mean coem on. i almost blew up at him but at the last second i kept my cool and simply said "well if thats what you think then it must be true" i almost went as far to say "your right Patrick i am a horrible friend. i never do anything for you. i don't go out of my way for you at all." it has come to my realization that Patrick may in fact be high maitnince. in any case he has helped me move but i am so sick of his crap. anyways.... ill keep everyone updated. *rolls eyes* i can't sya it enough. IF I WANTED A 13 YEAR OLD GIRL I WOULD DATE ONE!!!! later Days! *~Ashley~*