so im sitting on the couch, the last of which Jay has to pick up of his stuff... and me and Nick just ahd a fight. our first. i've been a bitch all weekend.... and i finaly snapped i mean i threw a freaking water bottle at the wall and yelled at Nick.... i still love him but holy man.... he made me so angry. anyways after i had my giant break down i realized that at 18 i am doing awesome concitering.... i'll write everything down later .... i want to eat and watch a movie and wait untill ya gets here so nick and him can both sit there and hug me. i just need it. anyways, im not mad at Nick anymore....im ok. and i know ill be ok... and i know my mom will be and i know Nick will be ok too. and evem though im sad for the first time in my life i feel like its ok ... and now im listning to micheal jackson... i've liked him ever since i was 2. anyways, ..............................................................ya. i feel better. i fianlly opened that door that steven tyler was singing about with Santana in that song 'just feel better' Later Days *Ãshley~*