The consort eh? Well I went to the Hedley consort. And Sara got a drumstick (I figured it was her first consort so I’d let her have it) so we were near the middlish/ back of the line and Kyla saw these guys that she works with so they bumped us to almost the front and everyone was kinda ticked. And I linked arms with Sara and Baileya nd strutted my stuff with them to the front (I was getting the most stairs.) anyways so when we got in after the crowd built up a little I met these girls and they were so stoalked for the consort. After Fable or whatever started then this chick in a white T pushed so many people out of her way and was really rude. Now im all for pushing to the front of the mosh pits and stuff but seriously be nice about it.so all these people were yelling at someone to stop her and stuff so I asked one of the girls “do you want me to bite her?” and everyone around me yelled “YA!!” so I bit her hard on the back of her shoulder. And the crowed worked ang got her out of there. Then everyone started pushing and I kept going “aauuggg” but in that ‘stupid kids” kind of ugg. Anwyasy so this chick next to me says “if you cant deal with it then maybe you should get the fuck out.” I almost decked her but controlled myself. And about 10-15 mins later she was at the back cuz she got pushed out. Fucking bitch! Don’t ever tell me something like that. I can friken handle my self, I mean I was about 4 people behind from the bar the whole consort which is like 5 hours. BAM! Doug the Dino bitch! So anyways then this chick I met later on… well her name was Clair. She was a babe. And she had a halter on… kinda good for me eh? So ya we exchanged names and were talking as the music was going and she says v”im going to just hold on to you okay?” “sure!” so she wraps her arm around my waist and I hold on to her shoulder and later her waist. Then after like 5 mins she puts her hand in my pocket. It was great. After like 30 mins she says “im going to go now. I have to egt out of here” so I said bye and it was off again for me. Then this guy kept standing behind me and ill admit I kept trying to stay in front of him too. And I could tell he was enjoying himself. After about 15 mins I found him again and he says “hey! Hows it going?!” and we started talking. We had never met before and we just started a convo. Then the crowed pushed me into him but neither of us really cared. So he held my waist and I held his and we jumped and swayed with the crowd. It was pretty sweet. And just before he left he slapped my arse. Lol. I loved it. I kinda wanted to kiss him. One of the best things is kissing in the middle of a mosh pit. So ya that happened then once more I was off and I met this other hot babe and her friend. She was a major prep but sweet. And her and I started to talk and later she was holding my hanbd through a lot of it. and she kept pulling me back to her side if someone started to get between us. I loved it. all of it. I love consorts. So far still my fav was Hot Hot Heat cuz its like a friken dance floor. (by the way me and the guy started a few pits our selves.) anyways so later the consort thinger was almost over so I left and went out to the hall area thinger and I just stood there not doing anything just waiting and this guy comes up to me and started to talk to me. It was funny but I liked talking to him so we chilled for a bit and he bought me some water. And then he asked for my number, so I gave it to him. Most people that ask for my number never call me. I never see the point of getting my number then. Yup and in the mall earlier that day the fire alarm went off and everyone left the food court but me, sara and Kyla stayed to eat. We weren’t leaving until a security guard came. Lol. And I think everyone gets pissed off when people look at me and talk to me and make eye contact with me. I wish I could say “hey? What can I say? Im a babe!” but that would be really vain of me … well I haven’t reached that total acceptance yet. I guess I am pretty interesting and hot. So basically im sitting here talking to Nick on the phone and were talking about absolutely nothing. Well kinda. And ya know whats sad about that? We both don’t have much to talk about cuz we call each other a lot and neither of us really can think of anything worth mentioning. So we just kinda sit there and retell a lot of stuff. Meh. I don’t mind. I like just sitting there and doing nothing too, although it sometimes can be a waist of minutes for either of us. So I was sitting in the grade two room today and there is this girl named Casie. Everyone in high school calls her the fat possessed one. I feel bad for her because she’s one of those types that I think might have some issues at home or some shit. Like… oh man. And the teacher is a bitch to her and is always degrading her and she takes it. But then again… when you’re a kid you have to. (im sure most of you who know me pretty good are probably sitting there and saying “but Ash, you hate kids. So why the fuck are you defending them?” well I like some of them sometimes. In fact im great with kids but if they piss me off oh man… look out.) but yes, yes so today was one of those things. And she ahs no friends and the kids always make fun of her and tell the teacher on her and basically tells her to shut up. I feel kinda bad. She has a fairly strong vocab for instance today she said to Clayton “Clayton I really did not like the way you expressed yourself and I would appreciate it if you would not do so and keep your opinions to yourself.” I mean wow. That’s pretty good for a 7 year old. Wow! Okay Morgan just called me! First time in like months that we actually talked on the phone!! Yay! Im really happy. Hopefully I can see her soon. Ya know what I was thinking before? I was talking to Nick and all of a sudden I thought… wow.. even though we both love each other I am still a really good friend to him. I love the fact that our relationship between one another haven’t changed. I love the fact that him and Tammy might have a chance again… I also love the fact that him and Chantelle will go out eventually. I love the fact that he still every once in a while asks for my opinion. I love that because he never usually needs help about anything really. Although he’s actually in the right about it anyways. I love the fact that he interreges me with just what he says and how he says it. I love how…he’s…. ya. You know what’s cool about me? Okay this is how I see myself… I might need some feed back as to if its right or not. Okay… I’m “one of the guys” I always hang with them and get invited to things with thema dn they all flirst with me and just love hanging out with me in general. Girls love me too. And they always find me attractive weather im just interesting or they actually think “damn!” haha… I am down to earth. I think kissing and cuddling is way to show that you like someone. And as most of you know… I absolutely love to cuddle. Almost nothing makes me happier. I don’t think its weird if a guy whos my friend sleeps over. I don’t find it weird for people to ask rather odd questions. I always try and answer them to the best of my ability too. I go out of my way to help people. But I am also down to earth enough to know when something is to much. I give my friends advice, even when they don’t want me to. I dress how I feel and I NEVER take crap. I stand up for my self and others but I also back down when necessary. I love phone calls at 3 in the morning. I love when people come and talk because they just want to. I love how everyone will come and get me in the middle of the night or invites me to things. I love how people tell me what’s on their minds, weather its about me or someone else. I like how they know that I will probably agree with them. I am a super hero. I think its cool how im the person who can most likely get stuff. Almost anything. I like how I have connections. I love my secrets and my inner thoughts. I love my turn ons. Which I have and will mention a few in here… I think its neat how I can be a total grunge kid who doesn’t wash my hair for almost a week and the next day be the classiest babe that you ever saw…. I love biting and wrestling, I love how I can wrestle with my guy friends and we never think anything of it. I love how they’ll stand up for me cuz after all … im like their little sister. Im their Ashley. I like how even the players like flirting with me. I like how the ladies flirt with me too. I like how everyone so far is okay with my sexuality. I even think its cool how im just their… but when someone breaks up or is going through a ruff time then I suddenly look like the hottest thing ever. I also like how im always single and it would kinds be weird for me to be in a relationship. I like how I don’t mind being all these things. I like how you can call at 3 and I will be the first to pick up. I love how I will never judge anyone no matter how stupid or sluty or anything they may be. Im pretty expectable. I love how the rain makes me feel and I love dancing randomly in it or kissing in the rain. I think its cool that no one has ever randomly givin me a gift other then occasions. I think its cool that the only flowers I’ve ever received are from my mom and my brother. I think its neat how I’ve accepted my past and moved on. I also think its cool that almost every girl I know I’ve seen them naked or half undressed. I hate however that when I get mad and stressed because something is illogical that I start to cry. I hate that I cry. I hate when I get stressed over my homework(after all I always say that I never get stressed about anything really) I hate when people blame me for their problems. I hate when people don’t sit down and talk things out with me. I hate when a person doesn’t realize the length that I go to most of the time to help. I think its neat how I’ve never had sex and I’ve never smoked or done drugs and I’ve done a lot of cool stuff (well to me) like coloring my hair purple, sneaking into an out door pool, doing my homework in my hot tub naked, going to the grave yard, ran naked through the streets with a friend accept we had out panties on. Tee hee. I’ve gottin into a random car with people who’ve been drinking (the driver was sober) I didn’t know them from a hole in the head. Shop lifted, dated someone that was totally wrong for me, fallin in love (I never wanted that to happin and I hope it dosnt again), had a hot tub party when my mom wasn’t home, made out with a player and just as he was getting into it walked off… hahaha… ummm… got up in my school roof, walked out on my principle (bastard), almost got suspended on the third day at my new school, wrote my name in tar and in sament. I love how I will try and make my friends feel better no matter what. (I am like a friken kids help line) … I cant think of anything else really. yup that would sum me up pretty good. So basically I am me. If you think I forgot anything then tell me. But I think that is pretty much it. (except for the random pets and stuff I do but that a different thing all together) Later Days! *~Ashley~*